It’s been another minute. I literally suck at keeping up with this because I kid you not I work 24/7. and when I’m not working I am sleeping.
I love working until it gets to a point were I am seriously burnt out.
And I wake up tired. I just sleep and go to work. and then come home and sleep again.
I am behind on shows. I haven’t seen my friends. I’m behind on self-care. I am pretty much behind in living life.
And I sit here and wonder what I can do to change this. and right now there’s not a lot. It’s hard starting new jobs. I feel like I need to build a rep and then I can start adjusting and changing little bits to accomodate me.
I go to my cottage soon. Well I guess it’s not technically my cottage. But the cottage my family has been going to for years. I absolutely LOVE it up there. It’s peaceful, relaxing, fun and just everything I need to reset. Recently I feel like I have been struggling to find where I fit.
And I mean this with work and life. Because I love my hometown. But I also love just being up north and by a lake and with my family. and I feel like I am struggling to adjust to summer and to a work schedule. I’ve also been thinking with the way I am as a human… always in a stressed and organized state… that maybe my job may not be the best fit.
I don’t want life to just pass me by. I say this all the time. and I mean it because I want to make my purpose worth it. And I want to make the best out of everyday. But I find myself making quick decisions here and there because I don’t want to just continue through something that doesn’t fit me. I am impatient that way. Sometimes I think it is a strength and other times I think it is a weakness. That maybe I don’t let things play out. Or maybe my decisions lead me closer to what I am supposed to accomplish.
I got another tattoo this week. BALANCE. on the back of my neck. connecting my head and body. I only like tattoos for their meaning. and this meaning I feel not only like my the world and my life is balanced. but for the fact to connect my mind, body and soul. and to connect my life in ways that create that meaningful balance.
I am also seeing Jack Johnson in concert next week and I couldn’t be more excited.
He is a nostalgic musician in my family. At my old ski cottage (which was my absolute favourite place in the world) we would play his “In Between Dreams” album on our little radio and I learned every word to every song. I will probably very likely cry at his concert knowing how nostalgic his music is for me.
That is about it.
I hope you are all doing well.
STAY KIND:)
with love
Grace<3