HAPPY SUNDAY!

This week I am officially starting summer school. Another 2 months of school to be more exact. Which is crazy. But I am excited to have this structure again. Or at least begin figuring out a structure for how I want my summer to go.

I’m starting to realize building a summer routine is more challenging than I thought. With finding a summer job to wanting to be outside 24/7 to completing summer courses, there are more items to balance. I am starting to feel lost in the moment with juggling these plans and commitments. But all in good time is when things start to fall into place.

I think I keep forgetting that having everything figured out right this second won’t do me any good. I can’t just throw myself full 100% into a routine I have yet to even understand. Throughout this past week I have begun realizing how little steps need to be taken in order for a strong routine or just a general life structure to form.

I think it also gets hard with the fact that I just want to live freely. Make spontaneous plans all the time or just go out and about with friends. Especially when the sun is out, my mindset is to take advantage of every ounce of nice weather. Which I mean is a good thing; I would be getting my vitamin D while also just putting myself in nature instead of hiding inside. But at the same time, it contributes greatly to my unmotivated thoughts. I guess trying to link work and school to the weather can be a good thing. Trying to be outside and study or finding work that puts me in an outdoor environment.

While I was writing this, I actually hit a big wall of stress. And felt like I needed to sort out life again.

What I have been finding is that when it comes to school, I tend to make quick decisions. And there are moments where I think I am being too quick and just not thinking things through. Then I remind myself that I am one of the biggest overthinkers I know. So then I recover a little bit and truly understand that I know I am just trying to put my best interest first.

I’m at a crossroads with my mind lately. Contemplating so much while also trying to relax at the same time.

It will get easier though.

Summer means refresh and eventually I will experience some clarity with what I want to do with the summer.

 

STAY KIND:)

with love

grace <3