HAPPY SUNDAY!
It’s officially August. CRAZY.
I’ve been home for almost a whole week. And it has gone by so quickly. School is approaching again. The independent routine is approaching. The thought of school stress has started surfacing again. New year, new classes, more content, more tests. It’s all starting to hit me again that soon enough, I will be deep in studying.
It is so hard to put into words the transition from summer into school. We all seem to get through the transition eventually, at whatever pace we feel, but it is just so hard to explain. It’s like a change in mindset, the reset back from a big long break. Especially now, being in university with a four month long summer break (of course minus the time taken for spring classes), the transition is a little more challenging.
In some ways, I feel like summer just began for me in July, just like back in high school. And now it’s almost over. I am truly excited to go back, be in a good solid routine, and work hard; but for the time being, I try to keep my vacation chapter open a little longer.
My anthem so far this month has been none other than August by Taylor Swift. Just needed to throw that out there. Since 12am on August first, it has been on repeat.
I have been catching up on some much needed rest days. I forget that I was on the go for three months. Taking this time to almost just sit around, watch some movies, and just take it easy has allowed me to reflect on how much this time has been valuable towards a reset.
Being back home has been an adjustment, for sure. But being around family and friends is what I needed to feel at home again. Choosing what I want to do, when I want to do it and just living day to day with no crazy plans has been really important for my transition back home.
Recently though, I have had these moments of stress where for a short period, a wave of worry surrounding contemplation of what I am doing with my life path has been hitting me. During these periods, I spiral into deep stress where I feel like I have to have everything figured out to the second. I forget about everything else going on, everything I have accomplished and the time I need to take for myself. Does that kinda make sense? I don’t know how else to describe it, but in these moments, I feel behind or something. But, it’s a sign to remind myself, and pat myself on the back for what I do day to day for myself. And that being somewhat unsure about the future or what our full path is going to be is okay. It is allowing us to make changes, reflect and really be in the moment we are in. Basically, I stress about what I haven’t figured out, but I forget about what’s to come that is going to help me get to where I may want to be. Plans change, opportunities surface, and we are allowed to not have it figured out.
Realizing this has helped calm those nerves about the future. It lets me return to where I am, and remember that balance in my life where I can prioritize me and where I am today.
ANYWAY
I hope you are all doing well
STAY KIND 🙂
with love
grace <3