HAPPY SUNDAY

my day started today at 5:30am. Who would I have thought that I would be able to accomplish that. I had a work training thing and I managed to get myself to work with no problem.

I think I need to time manage my sleep schedule. At the moment, I would say that it is one of the most unstable habits that I have. I don’t know what time I want to get to bed, so it ends up being late. And I very often tend to sleep through alarms. It’s a bad habit and a late start to my day.

So here’s my goal: fix my sleep schedule. Especially if I need to have mornings like this, where I need to be up early, I need to have a good schedule so I feel ready and energized for the day.

School is stressful again. Although I made a pretty organized calendar with all my assignments, I still feel like I am always missing something. And ALSO… who would have thought that two of my classes have the same dates for their midterms. Same day, twice this semester, I write two BIG midterms. It’s good because it will challenge me to multi-task hardcore, but it also gets stressful in busy times. I don’t want to fall behind in my other classes while preparing for these. Lots of juggling about to happen that’s for sure.

I feel like there is struggle again. To stay motivated. Sometimes even to smile. But I try to stay optimistic and look on the bright side that my work will pay off. I think I struggle to stay in the moment sometimes too. I’m either worrying about the past, or what’s going to happen later. It’s truly a hard cycle to break. I never want to lose the appreciation I have for me. That view easily becomes foggy and I fear of just not being able to see my worth or purpose sometimes. Even if things aren’t going right at this exact moment, it doesn’t mean that it’s going to stay like that forever. It’s very easy to lose sight of that. To think one bad thing means forever. I truly believe that these are just lessons, and being open-minded towards them will help anyone grasp the bigger picture.

Life gets heavy when you feel like you’re struggling. It feels like that right now. Heavy and sensitive. I feel like that describes my brain right now too.

I just want you to remember that as much as we can put on a face, it’s okay to be vulnerable and show your struggles. Everyone has them. Everyone is dealing with something too. There is never judgement. we are not alone in this.

 

STAY KIND:)

with love

grace<3