HAPPY SUNDAY!
I hope that by the time I have posted this, that I have finished Colleen Hoovers new book. Because this is the whole point of my blog this week.
Okay so it’s actually Saturday now when I am writing this and I didn’t read it because I have just been so randomly busy this week and it has kind of been a crappy week. BUT I will read it and actually give my full review next week. I thought it would be funny to keep the whole first part in here because why not.
So I said this week was pretty crappy.
And it sucks when it lasts a whole week. but sometimes it happens.
Things that I wouldn’t usually think to go wrong were actually going wrong, and I think I was a little more fragile this week when it came to my emotions. I don’t really like using the word fragile. Maybe vulnerable would be better. I don’t like to use fragile because it always came with such a heavy heart. And it makes me think of broken glass. And I don’t like to think that because everyone (and I mean everyone) is capable of growth, is capable to mend their broken hearts, and become the best version of themselves. sorry that was fully a rant about the smallest thing but I always keep that close to me.
ANYWAY, I was a little more vulnerable this week. A little hypersensitive and in touch with my emotions. But little things were building up in my already overactive brain and I just couldn’t function in the way I had hoped. I was behind from reading week, I had assignments to hand in. And I was overwhelmed with getting my life together and making decisions for my future in my program. Tough stuff.
I feel like I haven’t had much time to catch up with myself. I am constantly exhausted, once again. It is never ending. No matter how much sleep I get (although my sleep schedule is still inconsistent) and no matter how much rest time I get in a day, I still find myself wanting to curl up in my bed with a movie because my whole body just feels drained. I finally get what they mean when this time of year is when we shut down sometimes. Because I am definitely falling into that category.
My housemates and I went out for a real house dinner for the first time. We got all dressed up. And it was one of the first times all week where everything kind of just subsided for a moment. Nothing else was important to me than sitting at a table with my roomies and just chatting and having fun. I literally love them with my whole heart. And I am so appreciative for such a supportive, little family our house is.
Anyway, as October is coming to a close, and winter (HOHOHO SEASON) is coming up, change is going to happen again. The new year is approaching. It’s literally two months (and a week) away. Craziness. But I don’t want to start planning for the new year. If I want to make a change, if you want to make a change, don’t let January first be that start date. Because we can still become our best versions of ourselves in the middle of the year, at the end of the year, ALL YEAR ROUND. Don’t let that first day of 2023 be the moment you begin because you can be whoever you want right now. And I believe that if you wan’t to make that change, you are capable wherever and whenever.
I have no idea what 2023 entails, or what change is coming. But I know that I will embrace it, I will work my butt off and I will achieve everything that I dream of.
Make sure to plan something this week for yourself. Whether it’s going on a walk, reading a book, going out for coffee; do something you love. Something that can distract you from all your other stresses.
HAPPY LAST WEEK OF OCTOBER
STAY KIND:)
with love
grace <3